drmstream[writing]

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Category: remembering

When the gay boy got a girl pregnant

The rumor spread across cam­pus like the brush fires that sparked dur­ing dry fall after­noons at the mouth of Bloody Run: some­one had got a girl up the lane preg­nant. The Head­mas­ter knew. They were going to get expelled. At first we thought it was Sam. He had a ground floor sin­gle and he took […]

The boy within us

If once the boy within us ceases to speak to the man who enfolds him, the shape of life is bro­ken and there is, lit­er­ally, no more to be said. – Sean O’Faolain This is how it starts: fin­gers poised, your imag­i­na­tion press­ing at your joints. Then you hit the keys, click, clack, click, clack. The […]

Thunderhead Sugar Violet

When I was 11 I cashed in my sav­ings bond and bought a goat. I already had about 30 hens and a few roost­ers that we kept in an old shed at the cor­ner of our prop­erty. I sold fresh eggs in the neigh­bor­hood and loved to hear the roost­ers crow­ing in the morn­ing. But being […]

Can a book ruin a man? A memory.

The film­maker Erroll Mor­ris asked the ques­tion on Twit­ter, “I am inter­ested in assem­bling a col­lec­tion of sto­ries of peo­ple destroyed by read­ing (Any sug­ges­tions?)” and I wanted to make a smart con­tri­bu­tion but couldn’t shake a faint mem­ory of some­one wrapped in a blan­ket wan­der­ing Easton’s Beach with a tat­tered copy of Far From […]

Why couldn’t the db’s sing a song that made me less confused?

The thrum-clang of the gui­tar, the thump thump thump puls­ing of the tom-tom, and the song starts, Hol­sap­ple up on the stage, shaggy-haired and ener­getic, Stamey a lit­tle behind, dif­fi­dent and cere­bral, burst­ing together into the rhythm, and I lean back against the curved wall to feel the plas­ter vibrate. It’s loud, it’s angry and […]

Growing up deaf

 I posted a short piece the other day that shared some­thing of what it was like to grow up deaf.  The piece was impres­sion­is­tic and inten­tion­ally obscure, with the hope that the reader would find in its spare uncer­tainty and vivid imagery some­thing of the expe­ri­ence of hav­ing a sense impaired. The piece had […]

When you grow up deaf

When you grow up deaf there are so many things you don’t know. The sound of rain on the roof. The roar of waves as they crest, their agony as they crash. The huff­ing sound of some­one run­ning behind you. The scrap­ing sound your nails make as you scratch your neck. The brisk snap­ping of gum. The clank­ing ring of […]

The wire spool table

The table was made out of an old wire spool.  We cut the top off, pulled the slats out and made a tri­an­gu­lar base from heavy maple.  I don’t know how many yards of wire the spool held, but it must have been a lot, because we could fit the eight of us around the […]

The night walk

My bed­room was no dif­fer­ent from any other room, in any other house, in any other place, but I could not have been more aware of how dif­fer­ent my place was. My bed rested below a long, tall win­dow that peeked out into the pine grove between our house and the road. To the right, […]

From color to black & white

The pho­to­graphic record is a dis­tinctly mod­ern arti­fact. Before the portable cam­era, visual record emanated from the imag­i­na­tion, trans­lated by an artist’s hand. The pho­to­graph cap­tured visual images in a decep­tively accu­rate ren­der­ing, with detail that could be placed like a scrim over our eyes and keep images unmarred. Smart observers point to the inaccuracies […]